...fine well

well I've been travelling solo a long time
with my bag and my guitar
talking and a-drinking and a-smoking
with all kinds of folks from afar

I think I've learned a lot
but I sure don't know it all
It's good to be back home again
and hang my coat up on the wall

now preacher man don't tell me
what I should believe
cos I've seen kids and women
dying on the street

but i know fine well
that if Jesus really loves me
he wouldn't allow this hell

now in all of my days
which I can't say are a lot
I have to say im happy
with all that I got

I don't understand the problems
and I don't have any clue
about how to change the world
or what I should begin to do

so I just sing my songs
and hope that things will change
trying to do the best I can
and hope I dont go down in flames

but i know fine well
that if Jesus really loves me
he won't let me go to hell

perhaps there is no heaven
perhaps there is no hell
maybe there is no suffering
and it's all in our heads

maybe life's a dream
maybe it's not real
but why can't we make it better
do you understand how I feel?

I know fine well
that Jesus really loved me
and I know fine well

that my mother loves me too

I know I don't know anything
about what you're going through
But I hope that you do know
I've got something to give to you

It's a promise that I'll listen
to what you've got to say
and if I can help
I'll do it in my own way

I'll try to help you quickly
but sometimes it takes a while
often I can't help at all
but I hope I can make you smile

I hope you really do know
that I really do love you
and I'm here to wish you well

in all you're going through

...we are the cartoon heroes!!!

this is a little tip o' the hat to all the cartoons I grew up with, thankyou for making me the person I am today!

just remember these guys you are gonna see in the clip below are just cartoons and you just can't do what they can do. so don't try any of the stuff you see at home.  (unless your a cartoon like me - i like cartoons)

I'm gonna upload the song onto my myspace www.myspace.com/hopingpassenger soon so check that out if you just wanna hear me on the guitar without the cartoons!  a whole different experience...

...the same thing

look at the beggar

waving that sign
what do you really think is on his mind

food and clothes
i hope he can find
what do you really think is on his mind

he asks for some money
smokes on his fag
drinking his wine from a brown paper bag

he looks up

and i look down
sitting there all alone on the ground

but then i remember
i was once like him
i roll him a cigarette
and we begin

we don't shake hands
we don't say a word
the words have been spoken
and now we must learn

look in his eyes
show him respect
this is the only thing
he doesn't usually get

make him remember
all of those years
make him remember
all of those fears

show him myself
begin to cry
asking Christ
Why JESUS WHY?

then i remember
all of those years
and i remember
all of my fears

I'm just like him
i've been there too
what is so different
between me and you

we are the same thing we are the same thing we've done the same things we've done the same things
we've thought the same things we've saw the same things
and he begins to smile smile smile smile smile smile smile

so if you see someone
who looks a lot like you
why don't you share
help them get through

it doesn't have to be what you first think
maybe a kiss, maybe a wink
just because they're on the street
doesn't mean that you can't meet

...lover lay down

lover lay down
remove your clothes
lover lay down
noone knows
lover lay down
on the floor
lover lay down
close the door
lover lay down
make a wish
lover lay down
subtle kiss
lover lay down
hold my hand
lover lay down
understand
lover lay down
make believe
lover lay down
stay with me TONIGHT

in the summer sun
and the autumn rain
in the spring shower
in the autumns refrain

love lay down

...difficult path

...hiding place

the weather outside is frightning
and im glad im here with me
no i dont want to go outside
thats not something i wanna do
cos in here its delightful
ive got everything that i need
Ive got a good place i can hide
that you will never find me.

I'm in love, its easy to see
on my own no one bothering me
Ive got myself for company

I cant stand that drizzly rain
those sunny days oh they drive me insane
so stay inside where it doesnt change
when im inside its .. always the same

the weather outside is frightning
and im glad im in here
no i dont want to go outside
you cant make me go outside
cos in here its delightful
ive got everything that i need
Ive got a good place i can hide
that you will never find me.

MUSICAL INTERLUDE

look outside, its not so great
it sunny now but just you wait
not long and its raining clouds are turning gray
just close the curtains and it all goes away

...just me and you...and start new

i was having a browse around my computer looking for things and I came across some old songs I had recorded so I decided to put some of them up here for a laugh.

first one is a french one.. can't remember the translation exactly but I'm sure it's nice ;)

Je suis ...perdu,   just me and you - vois-tu,
je suis noyé,
inondé d'amour;
je  ne sais   plus
si je vis,
si je mange, si
je respire,
si je parle;
je sais que je t'aime.
je sais que je t'aime.
       je sais que je t'aime.

this one is moderately related to a certain time in my life i suppose.. see if you can figure out the meaning :)

Im sorry ive failed you - this will be the last time
Im sorry ive failed you - let this be the last ... time
Ive failed you - im so sorry, i dont deserve this second chance
Ive failed you - im so sorry, ill make this be the last... time
I want to start over, i want to start new again
Im sorry, ive let you down - this will be the last time
Im sorry, ive let you down  - i promise its the last.. time
I want to start over - i want to start new

I never want to break your heart again
I never want to fall apart again

...new deodorant

I haven't washed or showered in 2 days.. and my armpits don't smell!  have I lost my sense of smell or is the new deodorant I bought just really good?!?

I haven't really done much sleeping in my bed either come to think of it.  I should probably do something about that - right first things first.  A nice bath and then I'll see where the morning takes me.

...business time??

I made myself some business cards today, but I still don't feel like a business man.  It's got my phone number and stuff on it so I'll try handing it to useful people to get gigs and do a bit of networking like. 

Also I managed to land myself a christmas job in a shoe shop so that will be cool, money is always helpful around christmas.

...cloud mountain!!

saw this cloud mountain on the way out to lisburn from belfast the other day,, it was great.. just like a mountain made of clouds!  and it was a weird day too.  It was the day after our gig in auntie annies and we were sitting outside shortly after midday having a hair of the dog in the sun.  Got all ur gear in the car and drove out of belfast.  as soon as we got out it got cold.. and foggy.. difficult to drive and see.  then we looked across the motorway and saw a line of traffic that stretched from lisburn to belfast.  it was like everyone was leaving lisburn and we were heading straight into armageddon.  only a few brave souls we're driving towards the end of the world.  when we got there it wasn't that scary - just REALLY REALLY cold!

...on the first song I wrote that I actually liked

'picture on the wall' (rough demo at 2am last night)

made a promise to myself

never go back there

theres a picture on the wall

reminds me of that day

days come, days go by

i can only try

made a promise to the world

but they dont seem to care

they made a picture of a man

and put it on their wall

days come, days go by

i can only try

years come, years go by

i can only try

this song was written in a hotel room in india.  all the room had was a window and a picture on the wall of the world.  It made me think about things and made me right or write a song.  I think I had just had an argument with a friend because he fell and I laughed because I thought it was funny and then he was angry because we had been travelling in a Jeep across the himilayas for a long time and he wanted to sleep so falling wasn't exactly going to make him happy happy, and my laughing didn't help all that much.  After he went to his room I couldn't sleep so I tried to write a song.. and it goes a bit like this

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...on hoping passenger

hoping passenger began as an idea to keep my name safe, to hide away behind it and only let those people that I wanted to find into my world.  It worked for a while, I just came out when I wanted to and stayed at home when I felt like it.  I liked this disguise.  To an extent I still do that.. come and go as I please - is that selfish?  I don't know.. all I know is that if I don't feel right then there is something wrong.  That is why I am hoping passenger.  It is also a play on my name - Peter Harrison (or Pete if you feel informal in my company).  The spoonerism of my name is Heter Parrison and I quite like that word spoonerism and what it stands for, swapping things around.  Maybe you have a catchy spoonerism for your name too.  If not then never mind, we can't be spooning friends, but we can just be normal friends.

I hope to meet lots of friends and good people and probably enemies too throughout this little experiment so as they say in the movies... the END... and just the beginning